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My name is Kaylen. I’m single, black, queer,  lonely, whatever. Mostly poor.

I am a student at Indiana University. My mom does not believe in school. I do not have a high school diploma (she doesn’t trust public schools either) so I had to drive myself two hours away at 17 get my GED. I got into IU through a back door (yay for community college!) because I couldn’t afford to take the SAT/ACT.   I am mostly paying for school out of pocket. All I have is my education to keep me going. It has made me a happier, brighter, less anxious person, finally with a future. I get stellar grades, always on time to class, always sitting in the front. It is all I have. It is literally all I have. Mentally. Physically. My future depends on it.

I currently make $8.20 an hour at Starbucks. I make tips, but they average around 50c/hour. After taxes, I bring home around $400 a month, if that. My dad helps me the best he can, but he is on a city salary and I cannot keep asking him for money.

My rent went from $399.00 a month to $415.00 a month. I could not afford to pay for a $30.00n parking pass to my own complex, so I have to hope there’s a parking spot a block or two over and walk home in the middle of the night after every shift.

I am on depression medication that averages $20 for a monthly refill.

I frequently have kidney problems that average $30.00 a refill

I have migraines, for which meds average $120.00 a refill.

My electricity is $50.00 a month.

My car is $120.00 a month.

My insurance is $65.00 a month.

My car needs an oil change, a tire alignment, and is making weird noises that I have to get an estimate for. $70.00.

I am paying for school at Indiana University at around $7,000.00 per year. I get loans, but they are not enough. My hyper-religious parents do not like to talk, think, or even hear me ask for money about school. They help me with cosigning loans if I ask(and at a junior level, I am very badly in debt), but at an emotional price of a rant and mostly screaming and a lot of “you’re going to hell for not doing what God tells you to do”. So that has a massive psychological toll. I also cannot ask them for money for the doctor as they have a “strong trust in the lord to heal me”.

I just worked all summer and paid off my summer class at $1,339.00. Here is my bank account.

The rest will go to rent, which will not come close to covering hers or mine. I will have $0 to my name for months.

I have a rape and sexual harassment lawsuit against a police officer I am fighting at the moment. My depression medication ran out shortly after and I am beginning to feel the effects of my situation, my rape case, and general hopelessness set in on top of the depression. I am sinking.

My roommate has been deathly ill and has not been working and can only pay $275.00 of her rent. It is already overdue and I am going to have to pay the rest of the $415.00 and a $50 fee because she did not pay on time. This is so she does not get kicked out and I have to pay for the extra room until i find a roommate, which can’t happen as leases do not start again for another six months.

I do not have food. I cannot afford anything to eat. I currently have old food i stole from work, eggs, less than half a gallon of milk, and some old packets of ramen.

I am out of medicine for my depression, kidney problems and migraines until I can afford a total of $100 in copays to even see my doctors, let alone get medicine.

I have been selling panties, my games, all of my hobby supplies, furniture, eating less, not going home, not going anywhere to save gas. At the end of the day, if I could just eat, I would feel ten times better. Please help me.

If you could send me even a dollar, it would help tremendously. If not that, please reblog in hopes someone that can help sees this?

I’ve never felt so hopeless in my life. I cannot cannot cannot cannot lose my education. It’s been the only thing to get me through my depression, my toxic home situation, everything. It is everything to me.

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